LiFE GOES ON..

It is so hard to go on with life when I still wanted to g0 back with the past. I wanted to reminisce certain point in my life where I still have HER around me. Two years ago before she left us, I had not been able to figure out MUCH, the importance of her presence in our lives, there were some gaps between us due to her busy teaching career. I even miss now the way she nags, the way she gave me a tiger-stare and even the way she scolded me, I miss it. It is almost two years now since the day she left and rest for eternity, but I can still figure out the pain and the wound within me. It is not really easy to let go of a certain person, even though we know that she is leaving for good, with GOD.

I can still caught myself crying and staring at the middle of nowhere. I can still caught myself wishing and asking for “what if’s”, but I can never bring back time. I even got jealous seeing a MOTHER and DAUGHTER hanging out together, going out for shopping and groceries because those were the things we usually did before. If only I could ask GOD for 100 Days more, but I still end up wishing and waking up into reality that it will happen NO MORE.

GOD, just let me say this, “I miss my Mom..” and there’s no remedy to that. Though I’ll cry for pails of tears, but still, everything is just up to crying.

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~ by sweetdianadawn on September 29, 2011.